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My remaining time is growing short...
Dec. 26th, 2011 02:13 amI'm having one of those experiences where I'm just 'too happy' with the bag I've been given. This year was overall a very positive year, one that I enjoyed to an utmost extent. If I were to die right now, I'd die happy. It could easily be said that I've led a full life. So, about that bag...
I am a combat veteran who was a part of the invasion of Iraq in 2003. I participated in some other stuff, too; and was medically retired from the Army in 2009, after nearly ten years of service. Since retiring, I've lived in a supportive environment where I can see how much I've declined on the faces of the other veterans I live with. I've known them for over ten years, from when we were all stationed in Germany together. Shortly before Christmas I answered my water glass and drank from my phone. It wasn't until someone with me in the room got my attention did I realize just what it was that I was doing. It may not have been the first time.
In 2011, one of my investments definitely went south. $18,500 became $0.00. Over $20,000 that I was tracking as 'investments' became apparent to be 'IOUs', and as such got removed from my list of 'assets'. Now, a much more realistic inventory of financial assets reveals a total positive balance that is a small fraction of the aforementioned dollar figures. At least its positive.
Anyway, while my hand is full of crappy cards, I should mention that I'm still pretty happy with how my life turned out. Hence why I'm more concerned about proceeding down a long, psychological tunnel. Rationally, I should be in the midst of a depression. A deep one, at that.
Nope. Happy and bouncy are what I am instead. Anyway, as for the memory issue (answering glasses of water and drinking phones), I do expect that should that symptom to continue, that it will get worse. So, pardon me if I spend my remaining money, time and relative freedom having the best time I can.
I am a combat veteran who was a part of the invasion of Iraq in 2003. I participated in some other stuff, too; and was medically retired from the Army in 2009, after nearly ten years of service. Since retiring, I've lived in a supportive environment where I can see how much I've declined on the faces of the other veterans I live with. I've known them for over ten years, from when we were all stationed in Germany together. Shortly before Christmas I answered my water glass and drank from my phone. It wasn't until someone with me in the room got my attention did I realize just what it was that I was doing. It may not have been the first time.
In 2011, one of my investments definitely went south. $18,500 became $0.00. Over $20,000 that I was tracking as 'investments' became apparent to be 'IOUs', and as such got removed from my list of 'assets'. Now, a much more realistic inventory of financial assets reveals a total positive balance that is a small fraction of the aforementioned dollar figures. At least its positive.
Anyway, while my hand is full of crappy cards, I should mention that I'm still pretty happy with how my life turned out. Hence why I'm more concerned about proceeding down a long, psychological tunnel. Rationally, I should be in the midst of a depression. A deep one, at that.
Nope. Happy and bouncy are what I am instead. Anyway, as for the memory issue (answering glasses of water and drinking phones), I do expect that should that symptom to continue, that it will get worse. So, pardon me if I spend my remaining money, time and relative freedom having the best time I can.
